Hands Off

The least I can do is to behave and keep quiet.
Therefore, I will gaze at the stars :)

Heartbroken

The old man standing outside the Appliances Center. Being contented with mall's free air-conditioning and amusing himself with the movie shown on the big TV screen, which you can barely hear because of the thick-glassed window separating privilege and poverty.

The security guard patrolling an overpass along EDSA. Risking his life for a living & keeping himself awake just to stay alive. The one whom I've given some coffee the time I passed the bridge at 10:30 in the evening. He just smiled.

A group of basureros having their lunch along the sidewalk, beside the stinking garbage truck. Eating only-God-can-tell-what-are-those-stuff with bare hands. They were covering their faces. They were eating silently.

The single-legged old manong whom I used to give sandwiches because he looked like my grandfather who passed away. His place has been empty since the last 3 days. I've no idea where he is. He's just gone.

The kid who's been frequently sleeping on the sidewalk with newspapers covering his skinny body. He almost looked dead.

The old woman sitting at the Patient's Area. Waiting all day, even during lunch breaks. Waiting for countless hours just to get a free medical service. Waiting for somebody to come up and talk to her. She doesn't really mind if we're just interns. She doesn't mind if we were unlicensed. She just wanted a better life that she couldn't afford.

I stared at my overpriced food and venti frappucino.
I couldn't even touch them.
Shame.

Reading between the lines and the smiles

Photographs give me exploding senses and emotions. Time warping and cheery and poignant, all at the same time. Every portrait encapsulates a memory and every person in it holds a story to tell...all worth remembering.

New Direction

H2O - Christ is our Living Water. He is our nourishment. And He's all we need as we grow up.

Now, our COC's heading towards a new direction and a lifetime commitment:

Devoue - /de-voo-we/ French word for "committed"

A commitment to devote one's life to winning others to Christ, teaching and training them to follow Jesus as disciples.

"By this is My Father glorified, that you bear much fruit (or winning others);
so will you be My disciples." John 15:8

ps. /de-voo-we/ You should pout when you say voo.

Long day, long post

- I was down with fever yesterday. Thank God I was able to go out today though I was quite low-batt pa.

- Good day. School. Lunch. Taught English. Mall. Talk. Plan. Love (for God) & Life Assessment. Laugh. Kewl. Really good day. Really :)

- I'm starting to consider curling my hair BUUUT one thing was keeping me off: Individuality. Haha, I wanna be quite different though the last time I saw Renel she got the same haircut and the straight hair. Hmmmnn, maybe I should go skinhead ala Portman to really stand out. Huhaha!

How can a goddess not fall?

Hyun Bin.
He's about 3 years older than me.
Fate, sweet fate!
I chocolate you too haha :)
..crushness.

A Sunny Rainshower

Today, God made me realize one thing: I am happy. Truth is, He has always been making me happy. But I was too busy wallowing over heartaches. There could be a drizzle or a storm waiting outside, but!!! today I learned that I got a lot more than rain showers. I got the One who is in control of it. Life is not about fighting the rain with your umbrella. Life is not about running for shelter to keep you warm and dry. And life is not about crying will you savor the rain. Life is about thanking Him and praising Him under any rain. Dancing and singing with a heart of praise. Life is not about tears or wounds. Life is not about fear or silence. Life is not about sadness or anger. Life is definitely not about people. And definitely it's not about you. Life is about how you live each moment with genuine happiness because each moment we live is for Him.

Fragments

You can never finish a book without closing its chapters...

Hierarchy and Subordinates

I can never minds. Likewise, I can always ask. I asked a couple of times but you asked for silence so I kept quiet and never asked again. I guess that makes me valid to say, I wish I could read your mind. When I saw your tears I couldn't hug you, I couldn't even go near you...because I know you didn't want me or any of us to know. I can completely understand though it was such a painful feeling to just stand there and watch you break down. "D" doesn't go with friendship afterall. Sometimes I feel like a child who ain't supposed to know. Who ain't supposed to understand. Who ain't supposed to grow up.

No Hugging Please

At some point we feel alone. These are the moments when we forget how good it feels to cry in front of someone who's just staring at you. We feel much stronger. We learn to clean up on our own. We learn to pray our heartaches to one worthy Being. We learn not to lean on someone who could never be there at all times, contrary to what most people tell us. We realize that there's only one Pillar whom we can rely on.

Uphill from here

I was looking for the stars in the sky but they were all gone. When I bowed down, He made the sea of stars fell down to be within reach.

There are a lot of things to be thankful for. Life is good because He's always been good. But oftentimes we choose not to acknowledge the blessings even in the simplest crisis. Last 3 days? Life-changing. Less mind-challenging. Uber happy.

"Follow Me." He said you can be like Him. He knows you perfectly. I know I'll be facing a lot from this point but never will I run away again. Never will I let boulders crash my soul again. He chose you. He called you.

Blog hop to Dreamworld. We're dead. Yes, we're supposed to die to ourselves and let God live in us. I will never dislike anyone however he condemns the church and our faith but God bless you.