Drowned in my well-hidden thoughts

I didn't think I would feel so tired until this morning. This morning I felt its urgency like an incisive cut through my skin. I'm feeling rather emotional these days. I wanna paint desperately but first of all I wish I can paint. So for now, I want to draw something intrinsic and extraordinary. Something that is true and pure. A work that tells everything and nothing at the same time. I need substantial time. To maneuver a paint brush. To illustrate a noble artwork and to put my soul in it.